Negative: I couldn’t get a single book on audio this semester.
Positive: I spent Thursday and Friday ready out loud to myself in funny accidents to get through the pages.
Negative: I should have than work on the video and the paper, but I was not able to focus on it after all the reading.
Positive: I was inspired to work on my book which has a deadline coming up. So, I got lost in this story and the words. Relived a few life lessons and before I knew it was 1 am.
Negative: My youngest, who is a night owl. Requested an hour of TV and in my bed at 1AM. I explained to him that I am going to fall asleep and that he is too big to sleep in my bed.
Positive: I could snuggle with him and after 30 minutes before telling him that I couldn’t keep my eyes open. He agreed to end the movie if I will tuck him in.
Saturday was just one of those days and was not nearly as productive as it should have been, it was full of interruptions. There are several reasons as to why this weekend was going to be full of changes.
Negative: The older teenager was going to be here and his plans change from hour to hour. Consisting of mom take me here, mom pick me up there. This is not unusual for a teenager, but I was trying to write a fucking paper.
Positive: He re-met and a friend of mine, and for the first time since the divorce he said. “I like him, he seems chill”
I reminded my oldest that this man and I are just friends, and that I have too much on plate to date. This idea of me letting people met my children is hard for me, even if they are friends. The fact that he liked someone even if it was a friend was huge because he doesn’t like anyone new.
Negative: Unexpected visitors:
Positive: My wonderful supportive mom stops by and for the most didn’t interrupt me directly. She drove with me to drop the boys off and even stayed late to watch a movie with them, while working on my paper.
Negative: I don’t like going to the grocery store. It feels like a waste. I understand that we need food to survive, but it mostly feels expensive. It used to give me a panic attack. Now it’s just annoying with the time and the crowds.
Positive: I got to go grocery and my mom made this trip more pleasant. Plus, the kids brought in and put away all the groceries away for me.
Sunday had just as many distractions, but there are ways a better way to look at the situations and find the best part of it.