What you touch yourself!?! – is the shocking response I get from men who find out that I masturbate.
I am not sure why the expectations of masturbation are so different for woman than they are for men, but they are. Women are shamed for it or told that it’s not okay.
I figure when we encourage woman to self-explore it gives them power within their own sexual awareness. They discover their likes and dislikes better, and if they can bring themselves to organism, they are less likely to make bad decisions when it comes to having a sexual partner.
I’m currently working on two separate paintings. One with is full of women’s vulvas and their fingers, the working title is “self-teach” and the other is a grouping currently of two canvases with both a female and a male masturbating, the title is “Watch Me”
The Self Touch painting is at this pointing, sitting unfinished because I am dealing with the personal shame surrounding my sexual knowledge, openness, and my exposure of my evolving work. I have let it sit on an easel while the rest of the painting presents its self to me. I’ve been reading several books Wet, A Decade of Negative Thinking, and Hot White Truth through these books I have been able to acknowledge my fears and work on furthering my path and desire for social change through both my writing and my art.
Over the weekend I was able to discuss my work and concept with a fellow artist. We discussed my new nickname and the local bar where I have been painting, which is the Pussy Painter.
However, this nickname has created a buzz it has opened dialogue with the blue collar crowd. They have asked me very real questions about my art, my subject, and my concept as an artist. My favorite question so far has been “Are you just super horny?” No… Than a yes, accompanied by a laugh. Then I go into the theory behind my art.
We talked about the complexity of “Watch Me” that the pairing of the two makes the individual paintings stronger, combined with the spaces I am working on these paintings, which is on the patio of a local bar makes for an added layer of complexity to the title of “Watch me”
We discussed the reasons as to why I choose to a paint these subjects in public places.
I even had a very gruff man say, although he wouldn’t seek out nude art, especially male nudes he could say that this was a beautiful painting of a dick.
The idea behind “watch me” stems from the trend of sexting and dating in 2017.
Relationships become virtual and lacks an organic connection. However, there is a sexual virtual connection between the two subjects this idea of strangers sharing this private act between one another while describing what they want the other to do to each other enhancing sexual stimulation both in their minds and genitals. The climax is also different than masturbating alone because even though it’s self-inflected the desire was created by the interaction and the experience was shared. As the artist I get to a part of this intimate exchange the moment of “Watch me” and by taking out to the a public place to create it, I become the part of the subject as other strangers watch me bring out this private moment onto the canvas. Again, it sparks conversation about self-pleasure, sharing it with others, and the most important part it opens up the conversations on sex positive.
**all working is in progress